Nigerian lady with a so, so wide vagina cries out for help

Please help me, my pussy is so so wide. There is no soap, cream, oil I have not used, I have even sat on hot water, still no way. I have done everything there is. 

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The last resort now is that I went to see a doctor, as he asked me to lie down and open my legs. As I did, he screamed and asked me what happened? Yes it's that bad, my pussy is permanently open. 

The lips of my pussy is so black and ugly, if I am urinating it's like shower pouring. I don't even want to talk about sex because it's very very bad, even the guys complain. You can't even give me a head cause all you will be seeing is a deep hole, I am so ashamed of myself and the life I lived. 

All I did was 4ck big dicks, all my sex toys are so massive, I put different objects inside of me. I have used a pestle that comes with motar to masturbate before, I don't know what happened to me and my sex life, I became a freak, even my anus can't grip anything again. 

I'm so scared that I might end up a lesbian cause no man can enjoy my body anymore . And I don't have N4million to travel out for a sugery . Please I need serious help. How do I go about this? Please please help me ?